When the husband first started nudging me back to the blogging world, he did so thinking it would get my creative juices flowing again. I have never been the top dog of creativity. I dabble in many forms of creativity but no one would accuse me of being the best at any one creative endeavor. While some individuals may see this set-up as ideal--being able to do a little bit of everything--I always wished I could be insanely talented at just one thing. We probably all wish for that at some point in life, or maybe it's just me?
Anyways, as I was talking this notion through with my husband I was using my creative mediocrity as an excuse to refrain from blogging again. I believe the excuses sounded something like this...
"I'm really not a good enough writer to keep others intrigued."
"I don't do anything exciting to write about."
"Half of my projects/recipes end in failure, they'll see right through me."
"I like being creative and I like writing but I don't have anything terribly original to say or craft."
"Nobody cares what I have to say."
My husband's response, the wise man that he is, was that it's not about the readers, it's about me and allowing myself to simply express my creativity in whatever form that may take. Being creative is a process and finding your niche, that little corner of the creative world that inspires and brings you joy, takes time.
I absolutely love this little video my husband steered me toward the other day. It was the final push I need to just start writing again.
"All of us who do creative work get into it because we have good taste, but it's like there's a gap. For the first couple years that you're making stuff, you know that what you're making isn't really that good...it's trying to be good, it has ambition to be good, but it's really not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, your taste is still killer. Your taste is good enough that you can tell that what you're making is kind of a disappointment to you...And that's totally NORMAL..."
So here's to continuing to do, to work, to make stuff, it may not be pretty now, but perhaps there is a beautiful future.